I have been doing so much better. I am impressed with myself. Except for last night. I was doing so well for so long, and then the devil got into my head and before I could even argue with him, I messed up. We had our bible study group get together for pizza last night. I took a slice and a half, and gave the half to my husband when i sat down (good way to pawn your bad habits off on your husband, right?). Anyway, so only two pizza slices. That was awesome. So I was okay. I wasn't hungry and I definitely wasn't stuffed. Then the ice cream was broken out. I love forbidden chocolate so I took a small scoop in a small waffle bowl w/ a little hot fudge and some whipped cream. I was happy with myself. And then it happened. Oh it was terrible! I sneaked a pieced of pizza upstairs inside a paper towel and hid in my bedroom. What is wrong with me? I am like some sort of food addict. But you know what i didn't do last night? Of course you do. Pray. I prayed for my meal but not about me eating my meal and about the whole night. Well, I'll try again today when my boss takes me out to the Sole Proprietor. And then tomorrow for the spaghetti dinner, and then whatever else takes place during this crazy holiday season. If I can get through this, it should be easy after this.
2 comments:
Leah,
The first thing I thought of when you mentioned how you brought your pizza upstairs and hid in a room was when Dianna mentioned how she picked up an M & M off the floor.
Why did you go hide were you afraid of what the others might have said? For Pete's sake don't become a closet eater.....
Just "chalk it up" and say Oh well, and pray about it. It won't be easy until you get the "hang" of it. Its not easy for me either.
I'll see you tomorrow night.
Love Ya
Jane
Leah,
Good for you for admitting it, though. I have been able to stop the bad habit of waiting until the girls are asleep before I eat my dessert. Part of it was because I wanted to be able to enjoy it without the chow hounds begging for crumbs. Partly, though, it was because I knew I wasn't setting the best example & I felt guilty about it. Not quite the same, but similar to your issue. My advice when you screw up (which you will) is repent of it & move on (as Jane said). But, also CELEBRATE...you probably would've normally eaten that third piece at dinner & also the other piece at night, too. Don't let the one failure erase the 1 success. Better that than 2 failures. I feel I have to say this also....after Christmas will NOT be easier. There is always some special event. There is always dessert. Always temptation. It WILL get easier as you learn to submit these habits to the Lord & rely on Him for your strength & your right attitudes towards food. That's when it will get easier. Love ya...I'll probably see you tonight. Dianna
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